I seriously don't know why i'm doing this anymore. but i didn't have a reason in the first place so who the hell cares. I guess it's a way for me to tell people something without really telling them. and since people don't read this. it's mostly for me i guess.

Just a memory for now:

Kaya's birthday. last year. me. nell. ten yee. maeghan. we all went to kaya's house. and had so much fun.

There was just this part of the party when we were watching some movie that i can't remember. Me, Maeghan and Ten Yee were on the couch and Kaya and Nell on the other chair.

Then me and ten yee wanted to lie down on the chair. So we said "hey Maeghan. We want to lie down. Can you sit on the floor? You can take your pillows". Maeghan didn't mind at all. She just lay on the floor. Watching tv.

1 hour later. All three of us find ourselves sleeping. and the show was already ending. Kaya and Nell were looking at us. There weren't any tension or any weird atmosphere. Just us hanging out like good friends. A very relax atmosphere.

Little things like that. Can make you happy. Little things also change our lives. Why can't anything me the same anymore. like that. so relaxed. and friendly. but now... it's just dissapointing. to not feel like that anymore. everything became weird...